hold me close..

hold me in your arms.

i would like to stay longer..

cuz..

i like the special scent of your shirt...

and the soft whisper that lingers...

synchronize ? NO WAY

when we have 100 children..

we have 100 world.
100 soul
100 voices

pls. never ever make all the voices into 1

what about the remainding of 99 voices ?

put urself into their shoes.


bare that in mind.

i could barely heard...

'What do you really want in your life?'


that was a long session of counseling..

i admit...i'm lost..
totally lost of direction ..

mum had done a great job in consulting ..somehow..convincing..

to move further...
i have to make decision.

'what do u really want in your life?'

i'm in the middle of the maze..

perhaps..

i should listen to the voice that can hardly be heard ...
deep inside the bottom of my heart..

mum... it was all in vein...

.thanks for those who care.

i want to be good..

i want to be good...

so that ppl wil think that u r good too.

so that ppl wil not oppose us...

so that u wil love me more...

so that i'l b good enough to be with you...

i wont let any chance to love you pass me by...

p/s: i love you

i'm NOT stupid

...hate the way u control me...

PLS STOP IT MUM!

perhaps u should tell me a better reason instead of these :

1. she said that she dun wan his mum to look me in THAT way.
'which way?' i wonder
i'm curious bout that n gonna find it out.

2. the location isn't convenience.
i dun think this is a problem.

3. she said that she is too paranoid about being robbed when i'm not with them.

THIS IS ANNOYING !

i mean... what do u think i can do to protect her

from robbers with gun or knife..other than ... screaming?

any other more-reasonable-reason?

ya ya ya..
i cant do anything i know.
i prefer remain silent instead of blow your brain off the next morning i wake up.

i want FREEDOM! i want to join the tuition! NOW!
and i'm not stupid mum..
bare that in mind.

i'm not willing to do this. but is all your fault.

-THESE IS SO-NOT- REASONABLE-REASON -

school life's miserable

what should i do..?
i mean... what can i do?

oh god... teachers are pulling me down...

what is the purpose of asking what's the problem we faced

and yet put the blame on us?

alright...they might be thinking we dont hv any rights to grade the teachers.

we r just telling the truth..
arghh...

speechless...

i know i cant do anything ....

WHO THE HELL ON EARTH AM I?

i think i should.
i MUST voice up.

sad to be true
I DID.

but u know...
my effort... wasted ... failed to make changes..
although i'm trying really hard on that.

not feeling like continue my complains.
off to bed. shut my emo..

... i need you to stand by me.... always.

4 Akikians... Thank you.

girls....
we r all depress ... i'm sure u all feel the same way....
thats no big deal actually.....
even i feel like wanna slam the chair when we hv been criticized by the judge...
( with several unreasonable reasons)

i dun think saying someone's name in short form is sarcasm..
in fact.... i think it is unfair to us..

forget bout that...
think about all the laughther...
memorable moments we've been through together...
as a TEAM....!! that feeling is great! isn't it?

i want to thanks all of you...
my form 4 life...
challenging...
fun...
memorable....

this is going to keep in my mind for the rest of my life...

not going to forget ...

the sense of satisfaction...fulfilment...

respectable eileen n sc..
camera 'women ' shi xain...

super 38 group ... chee ern,ser qi, joe een , sai yee,mingzz,esther, kar yan..
(generally everyone belongs to this group)

EVERYONE! i just wanna say: THANK U!

i salute to you

although i'm in a relationship ..

just the same like what normal teenagers wil do..

guess what..

i NEVER argue with dad and mum on this matter.

(tats cool right?)

partly because my mum is a wise woman

with a clear mind..

i wanted to keep my 'secret' ..(i'm sure u did it b4)

but....

i couldn't make it at last...

on the day that UCSI incident happened..

i just ...lost control..

and wrote to my mum.. secret revealed..

i recieved a letter from my mum the next day

tears bursted out..

i love you mum.

god awarded me a great mum.

sorry that i'm not going to share the content of the letter.

(mum may not want it to)

to my mum:

thank you for who i am

thank you for all the things i'm not

all of the storms i've caused

and i've been wrong...

i'm sorry...

ever since the day we met,the day we fell in love...i've dream of standing by ur side

To my Precious:

just an ordinary day.
started out the same old way..
then i looked into ur eyes and knew
today would be the first for me.

...the day i fall in love...


people all say love is wonderful...
that the bell will ring
birds will sing..

the sky will open...
i wonder whre's that great big swmphony....
and i'll never promise to be true...
unless is you..



....the day i fall in love , with you....

i'm in love

i'm in love.
officially on the 14th feb.. valentine's day....
He confessed to me....
is a miracle...
i dream about this to happen everyday ,evernight...

to my soul mates.
BEAUTIES: thanks for being such a good listener. and advisor of course..


basicly i'll get everything out of my chest .Even my love story....(it is a long one)
i shared that with them for two years... continuously..without fail.
they probably suffered from ear -sore for
2 years
730 days
17520 hours.... (muahaha *-*)
haha...thanks ladies....^^

...he loves me. i love him too...

i remember the day we met...

i remember one thing clearly.
it was the day i went to a concert with my friends.
love at first sight happened to me.
I encountered my boy.
He was performing .. piano solo...
impressive.... inspired me.
I believe i'm lost .at that moment.
cant take my eyes of him...
angels brought me there.I always believe that.

two months later...
god bless....
teacher offered me to join the choir...
the point is, i can get to know him! ( haha... u may think i'm crazy)
in fact, i am...
how surprising...
is like a dream comes true..
slowly... we became good friends...

u r not going to believe that we are together at last...
sounds impossible....
but it's true.

i hv a crush on him.he had cast a spell over me.that i couldn't take him out of my mind...

ps: km.... haha...dun b jealous on this matter....u wil hv a boy friend.SOON

forgive me

form two years , a year of anxiety...
alot of secrets unrevealed...
secrets that i wil never know ..
those days dried our eyes....
i'm happy that everything had come to end...
i'm sorry for all the wrong doings. childish fighting...

i'm not the gloomy type(most of the time)
so all the sadness will be deleted from my brain automaticly...
i'm the lucky one. .

4 Akikians...no pain no gain

finally.... i've created my own blog....

partly becuase of u all ....!! see...

i must say..GOOD JOB ! 4 AKIKIANS!!!

i believe.... all the hard work and cooperation wil bring us good reward..

NO PAIN NO GAIN...siew teng told me that ..

everyone is really trying their very best... i knew it....

we are all in this together.... girls....beauties....ladies....! keep the spirit up !

talking bout our chorals speaking..teenage life...

i wonder...what am i actually doing this few years in high school?

hm..... let me recall all my memories.. ^^